Resorting to Anonymous

So, I've managed to make my way to Blogger, the one way I can express myself publicly, yet anonymously . If you ever do read this, I might as well say, this is what is in my head, my true thoughts of other people and my judgments.

It's 8 days 'till Halloween, and I could really care less. Our musical practice is on the night of terror, can you believe it? 6:30 to 9:30 What bull. This happened last year also! I don't understand why they don't just make it right after school, so I can be home by 6:30 or 7:00, just-in-time for giving out trick or treats and to watch a scary movie! But with our director, I'll name her Icky, 'cause it's what she is, there is no way we will have a shot at getting out early. Tough luck, eh? I really really hate her.. She just yells at people she feels like, not caring much about others feelings, if you don't meet her expectations-VWOOP- you are out of the production. What a great way to be...

Plus, there are people at practice who just drive me INSANE. I'll give them nicknames, just so we keep this going, first guy I'll talk about is, Rick. (Name changed) I used to have a crush on him, but obviously now, I don't and don't plan to ever. Oh, and if a gay guy bugs you, then you should stop reading this, right away. As this is honesty, at its best. So yeah, he is just so full of himself, as well as a COMPLETE FAKER. He is an ass hole and I can't stand him.. At all... I just am so of being around these people that I can't stand... I really want to quit the musical.. But I won't, since I made a decision to be in it and I refuse to quit 2-3 weeks in.

The freshmen are annoying as hell, so slutty and immature. I hate the fact I'm in the closet, I want more than anything to come out, fuck my parents and their reputation at risk, I AM GAY, get the fuck over yourselves. My mom already jokes about it, due to suspicion, ah I await the day I tell them the truth. "Hey mom, hey dad, just thought you should know that I've been gay since I was 12, probably younger, but I know I was and am." Thus, I've already accepted myself for who I am and I'm ready to get on with life, not letting that stand in my way.

Back to the main case at hand though, freshmen suck. I'm also tired of the Juniors always giving us, Sophomores, shit about how we are just as annoying as the freshmen, which is so not true, it's just their whole class is full of ass holes and d-bags. Which is fine, I just refuse to be friends with any of them. The musical is so far behind, I doubt it will be as good as we'd like it to be, we have great singers and actors, just a lot of freshmen/people who can't shut up or sit quietly. Oh, and btw, I'm not the typical gay guy who acts all feminine and girl-like, that is such a stupid stereotype and couldn't be more wrong.

I'm doing mediocre in school, which is terrible compared to my usual. I get A's, B's and C's. C's. What the fuck. I never get those, my parents aren't helping much with this either. Keep in my that my C is in Geometry. I hate math. Also, if I don't get my grades up, my dad threatens to have my pulled out of the Advanced World History class. FUCK YOU. This is MY class line up, not something you chose for me. Leave me alone. They are just getting in my life too much as well, which is why I'm not able to have a diary or journal, seeing as my mom will just look around my room for it and read it all. This way I'm safe. I hope.

My dad is threatening to take me out of dance classes, if he does that, I swear I will be so angry at them, mostly because they think they know how to handle me. Taking things away does not fix all the problems. They already grounded me for a week, so I can't do anything, I had to ditch my friend that I told I would go with to a Concert. Wow. I have homework I should be going over... But I just don't feel motivated to...

"Build a wall of books in the bed.. Repeat Repeat that I know we both said..." - Tegan and Sara

My favorite band/song.... Well.. I like this guy at my school, we'll name him Tim. He is so hot, cute, sexy, and nice. But I'm fairly certain he might be straight, even if he acts gay around me, which I do with a lot of my friends, but sometimes a little too much with him. Like.. Sometimes when we pretend that we're going to attack the other we get really close, I swear my lips have been less then 4 inches from his before... I was tempted to kiss him.. But I'm not sure I want to risk a friendship over my curiosity.. Ah well.. If fate loves me, he may read this and confront me about it, maybe he'd like me... Oh, he is also a new student to our school, so that makes him vulnerable and may just be conforming to fit in with my friends, but he also likes this girl and they are probably going to be dating.. Ah life is so full of confusion...

Well, if you read this, you have my props.. I'm happy someone finds my life worth something, thanks again :).

-My life in a nut shell.