Time's a tickin, yet we ain't moving.

What day is today?... That's right... It's the 29th.. Musical Production is on the 8th.. I think we are a little behind.. Dances are lacking.. Focus is long departed.. This kind of stress is never going to be alleviated.. I just wish this would all kinda fix itself. But, miracles like that don't happen to people like me. Except, I was able to fix one of our biggest dances :).

Quick Music update, since my music changes, and I want to post this one first.

"Everybody, Nobody is gona feel..." Short excerpt!
You're the One - Sugarcult

So, anyway, on one of our big numbers we have about 3 groups of people doing the same dance.. yet it was so hella off that it looked like some wild dance.. So me, being dance captain and all, grabbed one of the best dancers on the opposite side (other group) from me and had her dance in the front, like me. Lemme help you imagine this, imagine a stage, you are on it, facing off it, there are three groups, one on the left, right, center. I was on the right side, your right, and I was right on the edge of the stage, then turning around to face my group, so they could see me and dance with me, as to stay together.

The "temporary" dance captain girl was on the left side, your left, and she did the same as me, thus we managed to sync up all 3 sides from their terribleness! Hurray!

So practice was generally okay, seeing as we had the children's choir AND the band! Oh yeah.. One thing.. I MESSED UP MY FRIGGIN SOLO. Gawd. I was going to say it and I forgot the first 3 words, luckily i got the last though!... *cough*.. The better part is that I managed to dance every number correctly and be happy about it!

Oh man.. I give blood this Wednesday.. I really hope I find someone to hold my hand.. I'm a bit nervous. Ah.. Well... We'll have to see how it all goes down. It will be depressing if it turns out I'm anemic like my sister, thus losing my opportunity to give blood. Heh, a Halloween blood drive.. almost seems like a paradox or irony or something.. I dunno, I'm sleepy..

Ah, incase you are thinking I'm not going to be focused on posting these, you are wrong! I just forgot to say that I won't be posting during the weekends (no saturdays, sundays, maybe fridays). That's just because my weekends are way too busy and it's hard to fit in time to blog something really long and such like that. If you didn't notice, my writing is very different today, I feel a bit awkward and odd. Then again, a CHRISTIAN based play with lots of dancing, singing, and acting can do that to you. But, I'm still gay in the end and I want in Tim's pants! Heh!

So.. Civil Leadership today.. Saw John.. Why do I feel such emotions towards him? He just seems so real.. kind... and gentle.. He isn't too bad on the eyes either! I may make him sound all wonderful and all, but I guess if you first met him you'd think he was just some muscle big guy. But he isn't, he is so different.. I really feel like I could fall in love with someone like him.. The sex would be insane.

Damit >.<. Tim and Eric are talking a lot now-a-days and I've oh-so-envious. I just get really jealous when they are joking and laughing.. With me not.. I dunno.. It's just complicated.. Plus Tim talks about his "girlfriend", but he seems like he simply likes to have the title of having one.. Oh well. His loss. I shouldn't have to wait on someone who probably isn't worth the wait.
Well... I feel oh-so tired today.. Practice wore me out.. Plus I need to get extra long sleep and stuff like that for the blood, maybe I'll even pass out! Lmao. But, I refuse to miss musical practice... Ughh.... Missing that is just ASKING to be kicked out, instantly. Cut me and rape me upside down! Lol.

That's pretty much all for today, probably going to play some video games for a little, maybe 40 minutes. Then go to bed... Wake up.. School.. That whole deal. I would blog more, but not tonight :). Night all! (Does anyone even read this anyway?)

P.S. Before I forget my closure! Well, that's all for now. Another blog for your gay teen :).

-My life in a nut shell.